"When things don't feel right, know that you're not alone."

This is what my bestfriend wrote in my palm in the class. She asked to erase it, afraid it might look silly to me. But she will never know how I felt that day. She will never know how much I thank her for this. She will never know how amazed i was at her ability of detecting my sorrow even when i wasnt showing it. And I will never for get her smile when she finished writing it down. That sweet smile, gave me hope.


You stick by me & when I turn you shine my world with your smile.

You laugh at my jokes when they're lame & tell me you love me even when I annoy you.

You're my friend, all that I ever need. If I'm perfect as what you claimed, I wouldn't be w/o you. You're a piece in my life that made me what I am today.

WTF! DON'T YOU GO AROUND BEING DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Lol. She posted this on my wall when i posted quite an emotional status on Facebook. I couldn't stop my tears from falling. How did this kid know me too well?

Re-posting.

The feelings of fear comes overpowering my surrounding, wrapping around me as I pulled my legs close to my chest. I have been left alone in a room full of strangers, been ditched by a friend in an unfamiliar place and have walked in a lonely street with not a sign of soul anywhere but I have never felt this lonely and scared in my 16 years of life.
I hear my little sisters' laughter outside my room and I take my mind back to 11 years ago. I can see the younger version of myself, running wildly around the house, traits of happiness plastered across my face, genuine laughter I let out, it was the times when misery didnt exist.
I take myself back to where I am now, the vision of myself vanished with an imaginary puff and I wonder to myself; I want to be 5 again. I want to be fearless and carefree without having to worry about these things I worry. Why does everyone wants me to fall apart? My sight turns blurry. Tears spring to my eyes and without warning, they fall down my cheek, and without stopping, they continue to flow.
I am 16 and I am miserable. How can this even possible? It is supposed to be the age of fun, the age of experimenting, the age of exploring. I guess i had chosen the wrong path. Where I am now is not a wonderful view. I want to go back and start over.

This is what I do when i'm upset. I write a short note about it. This may sound silly and stupid, but it is my only way of expressing myself. everytime im noting down my feelings into words, i can just feel the pain, flowing down from my heart to my arm, all the way through the end of my pen and  and when it comes to the tip of it, i feel a relief spreading inside my body, like a shot of cold water after a scorching hot day. And that is how I feel now. I am not sure about tomorrow, but i'll worry about it when I have to. 

If You Need To Cry, Just Do It.

Crying occurs when the body reacts emotionally to something. Tears are a reaction of the nervous system to try and ease our pain, just as we would when physically harmed. The body senses our distress and the cranial nerve in the brain is stimulated, this sends signals to the neurotransmitters in the tear glands to make us cry. These tears contain high levels of manganese and the hormone prolactin in order to reduce the amount of these chemicals in the body, a defence mechanism produced to keep depression away. This is why many people feel better after they cry, because these excess hormones have been reduced and the body is returned to a more stable state.  

Sometimes we say we can’t cry anymore. Why? Well, if you keep triggering a stimulus, the nervous system stops responding. If you keep pressing on a bruise, after a while the nerves won’t respond anymore and it won’t hurt. If you keep getting upset, the body might not react to it, you might not cry, and you probably feel worse. 

So if you need to cry, just do it. It might be distressing, it might make you feel weak, it might make your eyes puffy, but it also might make you feel better.