Japan, Hang In There.

Japan is in a very horrible state of danger, and we all know it. While we are whining about our so-called terrible life, people in japan are struggling to grasp safety and security which are far beyond their reach. While we are starving ourselves to sleep just to look presentable, people in Japan are dying for water and food. While we are complaining about how we dont have a pretty house like some other people, the people in japan dont even have a roof over their head. 


If you care enough to explore facebook, you'll see filthy comments about how the tsunami in japan are the karma for destroying Pearl Harbour ect ect and that they deserve it. Sigh, some people are just born ignorant, aren't they? Wake the fuck up, people! We are lucky we are not there when it happened! Imagine watching our loved ones die right in front of our eyes, imagine dicovering the remaining bodies of our families among the remaining pieces of buildings, imagine the pain we would have felt. God, im sorry for the rude words but these people deserve that.


For the people in Japan, Im sorry i dont have enough money to donate, nor do I have enough possessions that will help. But my prayers are with you and I believe in the power of prayer and miracle will greet you, anytime, any day. It's just a matter of time. Hang in there, allright?

As for myself and my country, I pray to you Allah, for forgiveness and security. I  and every single soul in my land are of people with sins and in all humbleness, we are asking  for your blessing to be spilled upon us. Please protect us, Allah for we are your servants which possess no strengths to fight these disasters by ourselves. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Don't Let 'Em Say You Aint Beautiful.

"When things don't feel right, know that you're not alone."

This is what my bestfriend wrote on my palm in the class. She asked to erase it, afraid it might look silly to me. But she will never know how I felt that day. She will never know how much I thank her for this. She will never know how amazed i was at her ability of detecting my sorrow even when i wasnt showing it. And I will never forget her smile when she finished writing it down. That sweet little smile, gave me hope. 

You stick by me & when I turn you shine my world with your smile.
You laugh at my jokes when they're lame & tell me you love me even when I annoy you.
You're my friend, all that I ever need. If I'm perfect as what you claimed, I wouldn't be w/o you. You're a piece in my life that made me what I am today.
WTF! DON'T YOU GO AROUND BEING DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lol. She commented this on my status when i posted quite an emotional one on Facebook. I couldn't stop my tears from falling. How did this kid know me too well?

The thing is, my mum thinks she is a bad influence for me. That she set a bad example. Well guess what mum? She was there when I needed a hug. She knew all my problems. She knew all about me that you couldnt even guess. She never throw curses or bad words whenever I made her upset. She made my life better when things at home weren't even right. She was there, behind me all the time when I needed help. 

And you know what mum? She's a fuckin genius. She made it through Chemistry test even when she did not study at all. She passed greatly on Additional Mathematics and she has such a good personality than you'll ever have. She's got straight A's in her PMR and I know her a lot better than you do and you can keep your ignorant judgements to yourself.

Best friend, I love you. You're beautiful. No, im not saying this because you're my best friend. Im saying this because i thought you should know the truth, that you're really beautiful. 

"When things don't feel right, know that you're not alone."

This is what my bestfriend wrote in my palm in the class. She asked to erase it, afraid it might look silly to me. But she will never know how I felt that day. She will never know how much I thank her for this. She will never know how amazed i was at her ability of detecting my sorrow even when i wasnt showing it. And I will never for get her smile when she finished writing it down. That sweet smile, gave me hope.


You stick by me & when I turn you shine my world with your smile.

You laugh at my jokes when they're lame & tell me you love me even when I annoy you.

You're my friend, all that I ever need. If I'm perfect as what you claimed, I wouldn't be w/o you. You're a piece in my life that made me what I am today.

WTF! DON'T YOU GO AROUND BEING DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Lol. She posted this on my wall when i posted quite an emotional status on Facebook. I couldn't stop my tears from falling. How did this kid know me too well?

Re-posting.

The feelings of fear comes overpowering my surrounding, wrapping around me as I pulled my legs close to my chest. I have been left alone in a room full of strangers, been ditched by a friend in an unfamiliar place and have walked in a lonely street with not a sign of soul anywhere but I have never felt this lonely and scared in my 16 years of life.
I hear my little sisters' laughter outside my room and I take my mind back to 11 years ago. I can see the younger version of myself, running wildly around the house, traits of happiness plastered across my face, genuine laughter I let out, it was the times when misery didnt exist.
I take myself back to where I am now, the vision of myself vanished with an imaginary puff and I wonder to myself; I want to be 5 again. I want to be fearless and carefree without having to worry about these things I worry. Why does everyone wants me to fall apart? My sight turns blurry. Tears spring to my eyes and without warning, they fall down my cheek, and without stopping, they continue to flow.
I am 16 and I am miserable. How can this even possible? It is supposed to be the age of fun, the age of experimenting, the age of exploring. I guess i had chosen the wrong path. Where I am now is not a wonderful view. I want to go back and start over.

This is what I do when i'm upset. I write a short note about it. This may sound silly and stupid, but it is my only way of expressing myself. everytime im noting down my feelings into words, i can just feel the pain, flowing down from my heart to my arm, all the way through the end of my pen and  and when it comes to the tip of it, i feel a relief spreading inside my body, like a shot of cold water after a scorching hot day. And that is how I feel now. I am not sure about tomorrow, but i'll worry about it when I have to. 

If You Need To Cry, Just Do It.

Crying occurs when the body reacts emotionally to something. Tears are a reaction of the nervous system to try and ease our pain, just as we would when physically harmed. The body senses our distress and the cranial nerve in the brain is stimulated, this sends signals to the neurotransmitters in the tear glands to make us cry. These tears contain high levels of manganese and the hormone prolactin in order to reduce the amount of these chemicals in the body, a defence mechanism produced to keep depression away. This is why many people feel better after they cry, because these excess hormones have been reduced and the body is returned to a more stable state.  

Sometimes we say we can’t cry anymore. Why? Well, if you keep triggering a stimulus, the nervous system stops responding. If you keep pressing on a bruise, after a while the nerves won’t respond anymore and it won’t hurt. If you keep getting upset, the body might not react to it, you might not cry, and you probably feel worse. 

So if you need to cry, just do it. It might be distressing, it might make you feel weak, it might make your eyes puffy, but it also might make you feel better.