twenty years from now you will be dissapointed by the things you didnt do than by the ones you did do.

We All Have a Story, of Adolescence and All It's Glory.

This is a story about a girl.

The girl who has always been a loyal believer of the fairytales.

The girl who believes every story starts with a 'Once upon a time...'

And ends with a 'happily ever after..'

Eventhough she is aware that reality would always try to break into her thoughts and whisper the heartbreaking words, "Life is not a fairytale, sweetheart. Wake up."

But poor girl, she would shook her head and hold her ears, refusing to listen.

Little did she know, there will come a day where all her hopes will be destroyed,

by just a small but hurting action of a person whom she put all her love to.

I always like to start my story with 'Once upon a time...' and although i try my best to end it with a 'happily ever after..', there will always be that something which i come across down the road that leads my story to the opposite way. And this is just one of my unsuccessful attempts of turning my life into a storybook.


I fell in love. He was not a prince, nor did he own a white horse. He was once just a small boy with a dream. We lived in a small area of a town, too far away from the hustle bustle of the city. Years passed by, we grew out of our soft skins and in a blink of an eyes, we were as tall as a tree.


As i think about all this, i count the moments we are apart and realise, we have left that phase of adolescence 5 years ago. As my mind revolves around you, i feel my heart conquered by hopelessness and i wonder, out of millions people on earth, why did i fall in love with you? 

Eventhough i knew, it would be impossible to wait on you because, well...it's simple. You will never love me. throughout that 5 years, im sure that you must be in love with someone. though it hurts me to convince myself, but i can't close my eyes to the possibility. I guess this is just me. Always wanting the impossible. well, they all say the forbidden fruit is the sweetest...


I wish i can end this with a 'happily ever after.' but reality won't let me.



Goodbye, prince.
















Music: She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
Quote:  Dear heart, why him?

Do You Hear That, Love? They're Playing Our Song.

Have you ever sit on a bench in the park with your head down, waiting for a surprise? a simple hye from a stranger maybe. When it didnt happen, you leave your small notebook on the bench intentionally then walk away and wait for someone to tap your shoulder and says, "is this yours?"


I always hope for something like that. For someone to care, for something to make my day. it could be a hug from a stranger, a sincere smile from an unknown person on the street, or a wave of little hands from random kids you see.


One night, when the time seemed to crawl slow and the pitter patter of the rain hit the window, i was lying on the bed with my face covered with a blanket. I was crying for something bad i'd done to myself. the tears were uncontrolable as i couldnt stop them from falling. Then I felt little hands wander around the surface of my blanket and pull it off my face. i look up and saw a face, a face of a 3 year old kid. my mouth was shut. i was unprepared when she suddenly kiss my cheek and wipe my tears with those smooth little hands. This was unexpected. I smiled and the tears finally stopped.

Music: All About Us - He Is We

 Quote: Children dont grow up. Our bodies get bigger, but our hearts get torn up.

My Heart Is Burning Red

Pardon me for my lack of excitement,

But I’m not entirely thrilled.

Stutter when I talk,

Flail around as I walk,

Yeah the moment’s been killed.

And I’m not good at this no, not all.

I’m not good at this.

I’m a wreck and I know it,

And I tend to show it every chance that I get.

Butterflies in the skies, they just fly on by.

Yeah they’re making me sick.

They don’t flutter about, I’d do without.

All they do is kick.

Mean it truly,

Sincere heart.

Why do you do this to me?

Tear me apart.

It’s my fault and I know it,

And I tend to blow it, no thanks to you.

Its like you sit and you watch me,

You poke and you taunt me, it’s all that you do.

And I’m not fighting that no, not at all.

Just want to be something, a name you call.

The lips you taste just to fall, madly in love.

Mean it truly,

Sincere heart.

Why do you do this to me?

Tear me apart.

I got my eyes set on you,

My heart is burning red.

All of my words come out wrong,

Run circles in my head.

You had me and I melted,

In the palm of your hand.

You know it yes I felt it,

You’ll never understand.

Mean it truly,

Sincere heart.

Why do you do this to me?

Tear me apart.

Mean it truly,

Sincere heart.

Why do you do this to me?

Tear me apart.